Chapter 9 - The Children's Voice

In August, three weeks before the start of the new school year, Sutton, Birdie, and I sat on the back porch steps eating fresh peach cobbler.
Gray was lying on a blanket on the lawn, reading a comic book, his dog—a golden retriever puppy we had adopted from the shelter two months ago—napping across his knees.
Sutton set his plate down, looking out over the garden.
"Mom?" he asked quietly.
"Yes, Sutton?"
"We got a letter in the mail today from the prison," he said softly, pulling a small folded piece of paper from his pocket. "It was from Dad."
My heart gave a small, familiar tug, but I remained calm, setting my spoon down beside my bowl. "Did you read it?"
"Yeah," Sutton nodded. "He said he was sorry. He said he misses us and wants us to write back to him."
Birdie looked up from her plate, her brow furrowed. "I don't want to write to him. He let Grandma take Mom's clothes away."
I placed my hand over Birdie’s small fingers, then turned toward Sutton.
"Sutton," I said gently, "you are thirteen years old now. Your father made terrible, criminal choices that hurt our family deeply, and he is paying for those choices in prison. But whatever you feel toward him—whether you are angry, or sad, or whether you want to write back—is your choice. I will never force you to hate him, and I will never force you to love him. Your heart belongs to you."
Sutton looked at the piece of paper in his hands for a long moment. He looked at the house, at the bright garden we had planted together, at his sister eating cobbler, and at the silver mark on my neck where my central chemo line used to be.
Slowly, deliberately, Sutton folded the paper into a small square.
He did not tear it in anger. He did not cry.
He walked over to the stone fire pit we had built near the oak tree, tossed the paper onto the cold gray ashes, and struck a match.
We watched together as the paper caught fire, curling into a small bright flame before turning into a tiny wisp of white smoke that floated up into the evening sky and vanished into the summer breeze.
May you like
Sutton walked back to the porch, sat down beside me, and rested his head on my shoulder.
"I don't need to write back, Mom," Sutton whispered softly. "Everything I need is right here."